Go Fish

The pouring rain that ran down my face

provided a cover for the tears

I was at an unfamiliar place

to visit someone who I had once known so well.

Deep gashes scarred his wrist

as well as my mind.

I was light headed as he got closer

we hugged, I held on tight.

Go fish had never been so disturbing

I wanted to scream

why would you do this?

But I couldn't.

Instead I held all of the emotion

In the lump in my throat

that burned as I attempted to hold back the tears.

I choked on my words

and when a tear escaped

I quickly wiped it, so no one saw.

I wanted him to come home

to erase everything that had happened

But it wouldn't ever be that easy.

It was not something a 12 year old would forget.

The memories of the past years felt like a lie

chasing him through the tall feathery grass

in the warm summers sun

was a thought impossible to grasp.

How did he end up here

such a carefree boy that once

I had looked up to and wanted to be just like.

I had been wrong, I did not want to be like him.

I was let down

unable to fully understand

why this would happen to someone

who was so loved and talented.