My mother needed a new heart but
believed it could wait.
After all, it was my first dance recital
and I dreamed of my own spotlight.
Dressed up in shiny sequins, I imagined I would sashay
across the stage, shining grin
wave wildly to my mom in the front row
who would feel too proud to be sick.
My mother sent out the invitations as if it were
our wedding, asked for RSVPs by mail.
My grandmother came that day,
the one who later brought me to her house
fed me Wheaties and asked me to finish every speck
so I would stay big and strong even if
my mother did not.
In the end, my mother failed.
wrote the wrong time down by two hours so when we arrived,
my spotlight had already been
turned out. We have the photos,
my mother and I
stand with mascara rivers running through our
frozen smiles. We were experts in make-believe
almost convinced of our own
happy ending.
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