a funny feeling

you know that feeling
when you have been outside for awhile
and the sun starts to pound off of your back
and you can feel the sweat drip down your back
and you wish that you hadn't left your sunglasses in the car
which you hoped that you parked below a tree
because otherwise, it's gonna suck
when you sit down.

you know that feeling
when you touch someone's hand for the first time
and you might try to make it seem like an accident,
but you both know that it was on purpose.
and it keeps happening
until suddenly
your hands are clasped
and you never want to let go.

you know that feeling
when the snow is falling so hard
that you can barely lift up your foot
and place it in front of the other
until you get to your destination.
and you think that you will lose feeling in your fingers forever
and your car still feels so far away
even though you parked as close to the front
as you could.

you know that feeling
when your stomach suddenly drops
and no matter what anyone says,
tears will fall from your eyes immediately.
and you try to stop it
and you pretend that your bottom lip isn't forming that weird shape
and you start to lose vision because your eyes get so small and filled up
and your breath starts to come unnaturally
and suddenly, everything is overwhelming
and you just want to curl up in a ball
and let it all out.

you know that feeling
when you first walk outside without a coat on
and you didn't have to start your car up a few minutes before you got in it
and you even dare to unroll the sun roof,
even though you know it will make you freezing.
and you blast your favorite song
and you smile the whole way there
because spring is actually, actually on it's way.

you know that feeling
when something really isn't funny
but you're with your closest friends
and for some reason no matter how hard you try,
you cannot stop laughing.
and your eyes start to water
and your stomach is killing you
and your voice seems to disappear
so you're just laughing up silent air.


but you're so overcome with that emotion
and that feeling
and the inexpressible experience
that you have to let it happen
because if you don't
you might explode from
all
of
it.


yeah..
that one.
you know that feeling?
me too.